brazilian pussy - un proème de rupture (🇬🇧)

[Photos by my friend N.]

Brazilian Pussy - a breakup proetry piece

I'm gonna give myself a few week long break

I can't write in the present conditions

(I'm letting go)

I feel dumb

But it's only a feeling

More like thwarted in my writing impulses rather than dumb come to think of it

(But I can always write when I'm better.)

I'm gonna try a couple secondhand hifi stores tomorrow 

Really hope to find a new stereo (no luck)

(Time to rest)

She insulted me and shit

Could use a protection spell

I never call people evil but that takes the cake

(I'll listen to Brazilian Girls some other time)

I've had my share of Brazilian girls for a while

I don't have any physical picture of her 

(thankfully)

But I have a couple ideas

I blocked her on every platform 

(Somehow I feel like I deserve this)

I said my piece to her the other night and it turned her into a rabid vengeful monster

Calling me a motherfucker

Calling me out on her IG, calling me ugly? Like seriously

(Plus the theft of my stereo 

And the vinyl she revelled in playing while I was getting my stuff is a vinyl I purchased 

She stole it)

I wish she had punched me so I could press charges

(It's good to read that)

I feel like I'm going crazy

I had a panic attack on the way

Hadn't had any in many months

(She tried to keep us apart.)

Shoulda bailed

I hate regrets 

(I'm so angry)

(I'm gonna try)

I'm gonna try to make the most of Paris

(You're so pretty)

I sorta peed my pants because I had so much driving to do…

(I feel humiliated)

A joint and I'll finish my glass and hit the shower

I ordered a protection illustration from one of my tattoo artist who's also an energy healer

She's gonna draw her stuff 

(No guideline, just gave her my name and date of birth)

Aw man

(I miss you)

I never shot anything with her

My friend helped me move out

To thank him I drove him to Boulevard Saint Germain right by where we were 

Saw the Eiffel Tower up close after crossing Bir Hakeim bridge

(That's in Inception) 

She was pretty good in bed but very selfish come to think of it

(Might jerk off)

I only copy pasted my last messages to you and it's my attempt at a Shakespeare-soliloquy-sounding graphically-e.e. cummingsian, Bukowkesque expression.